I wish that my life would settle down and stop being so damn complicated. Pardon my French, but I think this is a good cause for swearing. I am worried, Karen and Beth are worried, and I feel lost. I am glad to finally have a chance for blogging. I have been missing it, dearly. So here is a general sum-up of my situation.
Mary, Beth's mom, is in an Olympian adult family home and is on hospis. John, Beth's brother, has a house that he owns in Tacoma, but it still has repairs before he can move in. Two of the apartments in Portland are rented and the third is almost ready, with someone who can't wait to move in. John is living in the fourth appartment and the basement is full of his stuff.
And here is the BIG PROBLEM! We are running out of money. It is that plain and simple, and yet it is so complicated. Karen, Beth and I might have to move Mary into our house, because we won't have the money to keep her in the adult family home. Then I will have to help Karen take care of Mary while Beth is teaching to earn the money.
I hope that this will not happen. It will make my home into hell, or so it would seem.
Blogging is a good way to find connections with other folks, to be able to share things that are hard and sometimes get the worries out where you can see them and not just have them running round in your head. I know I do that. Sometimes I even write a post but do not actually put it up, just writing it down and keeping it as a "draft" gets it out where I can let it rest.
ReplyDeleteThe situation where you are living is probably going to be difficult for a while. That is part of what life as an adult is like, figuring out how to get through the things that life hands you, that you might not particularly want to have... (How do I know? because that is happening in my life too, right now, different stuff, but not what I want to have happen.)
The good news is that you are not alone. Besides your aunties, there are other folks, like Jen, that are there for you, that will be able to give you respite and help you deal with things, and help you continue to grow, learn, and have fun. I will do what I can to be there for you here in the electronic world. It is important that you have a balance between helping Karen care for Mary, (if that comes to pass) and helping Ceilidh care for Ceilidh.
I love you my friend and am sending good thoughts to you. You can always email me, or send me messages via my blog, http://artisanry.blogspot.com/